Life, Thoughts, Uncategorized

Anthony Bourdain R.I.P.

I was on Facebook today and saw this picture posted by one of my friends. As I near the ripe age of 22 and prepare for my trip next Monday, this quote connected to me a lot:

Source: Facebook – The Chef’s Circle

Anthony Bourdain was highly admired, a star chef, and a lover of life. He showed us the importance of traveling and adventuring and experiencing another person’s lifestyle. In witnessing his exploration of the world I was taught empathy and passion and a love for food.

Growing up, my mom and I spent little time together as she worked the majority of the day and wouldn’t get home until late at night. Most of the week I was either in school or with my grandparents, where we spent our television time watching game shows or sports. During moments where my mom and I would be able to spend time together at home, we took pleasure in watching Anthony Bourdain’s: No Reservations on the Travel Channel. My mom and I loved his poetic and raw outlook on life, and it was always interesting to see what adventures he experienced. I have many fond memories of us watching his trips together, reacting to the dishes he would eat (how we would want to try this or that someday), laughing at his (sometimes crude, but always real) comments, and wishing to one day go where he has gone.

Anthony Bourdain suffered from heroin addiction when he was younger, the same difficult struggle my late brother battled with. While they were both alive, Anthony Bourdain’s triumphs and long life gave me hope that my brother would beat his addiction and life an equally full life.

He also suffered from depression, but didn’t let that prevent him from experiencing the world as much as he could. I also suffer from depression and other mental health issues, but Anthony gave me hope that the world could be better, that I could accomplish and experience things that I’ve only dreamed of. It saddens me that his battle with depression ended this way.  I was told that he never sought treatment, dealt with it by himself without trying to seek help. I am grateful for the community I grew up in and the information I was given about mental health and depression, to be able to seek and receive treatment. No one should ever be pushed to this point in life, where they feel like there is nowhere to turn to.

For anyone reading this: If you feel like you are alone and have nowhere to turn to, know that there are always options to get the help you need and that there are people out there who will care and support you. The National Suicide Prevention Hotline is 1-800-273-8255.

Anthony Bourdain, you fought your demons for as long as you could and inspired so many people to live their best life. My condolences and best wishes to your family and friends. Thank you for all that you’ve done to bring the world together.

Life, Uncategorized

I’ve Been Away…

Hello again. I’ve been gone for a while… like five months or so… and internet time that’s like a few decades. I have a lot of catching up to do and a lot to fill you all in with.


The main reason why I dropped off of the face of the interworld was because I was mourning the death of a very close family member. I’m not going to go into that much detail about what happened or how I was during that time. If you know me personally, you probably know what happened anyway.


To be completely honest, the internet and blogging didn’t really seem like a good way to spend my time. I thought that if I were to blog about how I was feeling or what I was doing during that point in my life, that my blog would turn into one of those depressing, angsty, teenage drama blogs that everyone loves to read so much (sarcasm, if you couldn’t tell). So, I basically shelved my computer and my blogs and most forms of social networking. Since then I’ve been trying to cope and continue living life.
But after three months or so of being cut off from most forms of social media, I realized that I missed sharing my life with the world. I want to be able to share what I love to do and what I think about things with you all. And I know that most of you have probably stopped following this blog, but for those who haven’t- I’m back, and I’m hoping to stay.


I’ll be posting another update about what I’ve been up to over the summer very soon. Thanks everyone!


Valentine’s Day ALONE.

It’s that time of year again- Valentine’s Day. Its the time for love, chocolate, and flying babies in diapers wielding bows and arrows. If you’re like me, you’ll be spending Valentine’s Day by yourself. Without a significant other. Without a “secret admirer”. Without a Valentine. Alone…

But don’t worry! Because February 14th also happens to be SAD, or Singles’-Awareness-Day. On this empowering day, single people everywhere celebrate their independence. On this day, women everywhere sing, “Single Ladies,” at the top of their lungs with their equally-as-single girlfriends, eating buckets and buckets of cookie dough ice cream. On this day, men are free from the excruciating pain of having to plan a special day and buy the perfect gift for their lover. And on this day, YOU can have the best time of your life by yourself while couples watch cheesy, vapid romantic comedies and struggle to find a reservation at some fancy, over-priced restaurant. Not sure what to do? Here are some ideas:

1. Hang out with SINGLE-minded people. Gather your friends and have a singles’ day out. Play a game where whenever one of you point out a couple, you get a point. Whoever gets the least amount of points buys dinner for everyone else.

2. Buy a beta fish. Beta fish are independent. They don’t like company. Let them remind you of how being single is totally fine.

3. Girls- pamper yourself. Go to a spa, get your nails/hair done, or stay at home and use one of those freaky, green, alien face masks. You don’t have to try and impress anyone on this day, so go all out.

4. Guys- I don’t know. Blow something up. You don’t have anyone hanging around you, begging you to do this-and-that. Play those videogames your significant other would hate to watch you play all day. Work out. Go off and… do whatever guys do.

5. Eat chocolate/dessert/candy. You don’t have to be in a relationship to enjoy something sweet.

6. Watch anti-Valentine’s Day movies. I’d recommend any horror or comedy movie. Some of my personal favorites are, “Scream,” “Dial ‘M’ for Murder,” “So I Married an Axe Murderer,” and, “The Break-Up”.

7. Do absolutely nothing. This is the one day where couples all over the nation go all out for each other. Why not just enjoy the day to yourself and relax? Take a nap. Browse the web. Hang out with your cat. Or you can just carry on with your day like normal, because Valentine’s Day can just be like any other day.